I AM HURTING because of words that were spoken and things left unsaid. Because we promised to never leave each other’s side and I feel you’re pushing me away.

I AM HATING MYSELF that I may have offended you because you have offended me. That I may have wounded you just because I fail to see things in a positive light. That I have failed to understand. That I may be pushing you to your edge because I’m too hurt to even bother if you’re hurting the same way.

I AM FULL OF REGRETS that I acted so childishly and selfishly without due regard for your vulnerability. Forgive me for always treating you as my equal because your wonders tell me so. How you are always full in spirit somehow conceals away the bars that are keeping your hands tied together in pain and in misery. And that is so dumb of me. So dumb of me.

I NEED YOU to always be my dearest friend and my deepest love. That we remain best of friends and the best of lovers, the most wonderful parents that we can be. That you keep me inspired to rise up against my own standards and expectations as you have tried to do so and often successfully. That you remain my worst critic who confronts me of my mindlessness without hesitation.

I WANT YOU to be my lighthouse when like a ship I’m lost at sea. Provide me navigation and steer me to your arms where I’ve always belonged in my past life. To confirm my dreams of you as my one and only soulmate in this life and the next. To not give up where I fail and to not give in to your own mistakes… For you are all I want no matter how small you seem to be in your own eyes, for you are biggest in mine.

I LOVE YOU even if you don’t get how and why. I love you–heart, mind, body and soul.

DON’T EVER GIVE UP ON ME.